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Candyman – 09/07/2017
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Izi – 09/07/2017
Hi all, just waking up. blegh
Caffeine and video games
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Candyman – 09/07/2017
Hey Izi. Music, Work and trading for me
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
I am having a cup of coffee too.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Do you drink it black?
Oof, I gotta go re-read a big chunk of a book for the curriculum.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Yeah. I do. I like the deepness of the flavor.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Hm. Well I’ll be back later, have to go finish this section and write a comment.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
kk have fun
Izi – 09/07/2017
It was that part in Crowley’ work where he describes marriage as a mutated farce and the sex life of the bourgeois as disgusting, the idol of the corpse of love.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Oh cool.
your speakin to the choir on that part
Izi – 09/07/2017
He’s really pretty funny throughout the whole rant.
Although I feel wary when he starts sounding like he’s about to advocate for pederasty or something. He never goes that far.
But when he forbids the seduction of “infants” I have to wonder why he used “infants” instead of the word “children”
Oh well, I’m probably being paranoid.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Im making a skull shaped homebase right now
its turning out ok
Izi – 09/07/2017
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
ill post a pic later
Izi – 09/07/2017
Right now…with that article in mind you mentioned, En, the one about Yin and Yang sexuality…I’m trying to figure out what a “soul” is composed of.
I’m not even sure that I like or will stick with the word “soul”
There are some more precise terms used in India to describe it, and the Egyptians had a pretty rigorous glossary of terms regarding the parts of the soul…
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
goes to look at the chat
sorry which one?
Izi – 09/07/2017
Nuit informs us in no uncertain terms for those of us paying attention that she has no way of ‘speaking’ by herself…she needs an intermediary…like Aiwass or Rose, for example, to “speak” and this is because I think she is the personification of Yin itself. Yin being a passive principle needs to be read by an active principle or an intermediary principle like Jen.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Nevermind that, this is an important discussion, you’ll like it, but I don’t know if you can help.
Just put that on the agenda for this month, we’re going to be dissecting the idea of souls.
I have to finish this entry.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Oh :open_mouth:
Oh I see the one by Crowley. Thought you meant like way before.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Yes, way before, you were interested in my assertion that I was a true Yin
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Yes I remember that.
Izi – 09/07/2017
It’s in this article that I will explain that, but it is a difficult article with a lot of unknowns
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
I see. Well it’s cool that you bounce your ideas in here.
Pretty excited to read =]
The only thing I would claim to have some understanding is the idea of the vulnerable ego being more important than it’s typically given in psychology, and that it is closer to the idea of the id than of a simple “psychological defence”
Izi – 09/07/2017
Yeah I think that too, occultists especially seem to mix up Id and Ego all the time.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
That’s typical of jungian perspectivce though, the ego isn’t just a barrier, it’s like an integration system
Behaviorism is useful… but to a certain degree the only useful tools we have now is brain scans and self introspection
Izi – 09/07/2017
I put some of my weird diary on reddit
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
You post on there alot?
Izi – 09/07/2017
Speaking of integration, I think you have to get pretty out there to properly integrate some of the magickal ideas, like Abrahadabra. That entry is an example of that.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Take risks you mean?
Izi – 09/07/2017
People are so dull on r/occult generally so I thought I’d show them what real magick looks like.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
goes to read
Izi – 09/07/2017
I don’t usually post on reddit, I always post my journal on Abrahadabra Forums, except parts I’m forbidden to share.
And then, I label it <redacted> if it’s missing.
Candyman – 09/07/2017
I read that, it was nuts. made me laugh a couple times too
Izi – 09/07/2017
It’s just that the most interesting posts on r/occult are being made by a Nazi, and that’s a problem .
Oh good. :smiley:
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
hm cant find the link
Candyman – 09/07/2017
does that Nazi guy know what he’s talking about?
i got the impression he makes a lot of stuff up.
Izi – 09/07/2017
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He is. I’ve met his “type” before, he’s got a vanity problem.
Candyman – 09/07/2017
He is making stuff up? or he knows what he’s talking about
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
is this the one from reddit?
Izi – 09/07/2017
He hasn’t been able to ignite anything as spectacular as he would like so he constantly fills in the blanks with ooey bullshit.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
im not really good at navigating reddit, truthfully havent really done so at all really lol
Izi – 09/07/2017
There’s basically two types of occultists, those who are interested in the truth and objective reality at any cost – even if it means discarding ideas they like, and occultists who feel like memes and fantasy are exactly the same thing as magick.
They just arn’t. Everything that I talk about or record really happened, and I don’t embellish anything.
I wasn’t always so rigorous, because up until Abrahadabra I hadn’t actually experienced what was possible.
I was getting some results, but people settle. They really do.
So perseverance furthers.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Thankyou for the journal
Izi – 09/07/2017
So vox triarii knows some stuff, but he mixes it up with fictional characters and little pieces of truth interspersed with outright lies. He’s intelligent enough to make it all sound plausible, and he uses a certain style of language you find in ornate fiction, Lovecraft and so on.
I know the style because I’m a bookworm and I use that style of prose to spice up my writing, but I have very firm standards on what I will espouse as truth and reality, he does not.
It’s all just a game to him, even though it isn’t. He’s going to end up either wandering around the rest of his life in a fog of his own making or he’s going to lock horns with something real that is able to shut down his little fantasy vanity game he likes to play.
Even his attraction to Nazi ideology reveals his hand – he’s so desperate for real magick that he’s gone to the extreme end of the spectrum just to “check things out” so to speak.
Candyman – 09/07/2017
It took me a little while to catch on to that. I started noticing the lies and then it all fell apart. I don’t read his posts any longer but that whole sub treats him like royalty
Izi – 09/07/2017
I almost wonder if he’s the head of the Illuminates of Thanateros, that guy was a fucking flowery moron.
Could almost see him toning it down and going that direction. He was a major Nazi as well. And had no morals regarding mixing fiction and reality.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
So the thread you two were mentioning a few mins ago, is there any particular thread? Or are you just commenting on this character and his posts in general?
Candyman – 09/07/2017
He posts in basically every thread.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Just this guy who goes by the username vox_triarii.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
I see.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Yeah that strikes me as a neurotic tick, like he’s gotta try and prove himself. Or he wants to be the King of r/occult. Boy he’s welcome to it.
He started posting a lot more after criticism started to come out,, like he was trying to bury the callouts.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Reading your journal is really inspiring!
Im gonna go lurk some reddit threads :open_mouth:
Candyman – 09/07/2017
That’s how I ended up here
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Oh I see.
Perhaps he’s also using the conflict to learn… albeit in a kind of really around the bushes kind of way.
Unless you don’t think he’s learning anything xDD
Izi – 09/07/2017
I think he’s learning that people don’t like Nazis in general…
Candyman – 09/07/2017
to be fair, at least he owns it. he never denies
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Im curious about this idea of german idealism or nazi magic… just what are they doing anyways? I dont really care, I’ve thrown in my lot philosophically along time ago, but It definitely moves some people.
It must be strange to grab your attention. Or is this just like your daily sitcom? :D:D
Izi – 09/07/2017
Well…it is a religion that deifies Hitler as a god, and advocates for a caste system, to maintain the pure blood of the whites.
thingsandstuff – 09/07/2017
I heard Germans got magic powers from cave lizards
Izi – 09/07/2017
They consider him to be the ninth avatar of Vishnu.

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I hope this newsletter finds you all well. If you feel a cold coming down like I did this morning, I recommend you stay away from sugar, drink some echinacea tea, absolutely no Oktoberfest activities unless it’s just the sausages, and lots of zinc and vitamin C. If you can stomache it, down some Goldenseal tincture. Don’t forget your scarf and hat, it helps. 

Chaos Magick Sigil Workshop: Abrahadabra Style
This month I did an impromptu workshop on sigil magick. A video of the full event is located at the link above. It’s a private link, but it’s okay to share it amongst anyone you wish.This will be the first of a variety of ongoing workshops I will be hosting, at least once a month. If there is a topic that you are interested in, such as the MAT or something else, members are highly encouraged to notify me and I will do my best to arrange something. Call or e-mail me back.
The Kings and Queens of the Earth: Introduction
In this series we’ll be exploring some of the lesser known figures within magick, philosophy, science and politics who helps shape the Nu Aeon. Their direct connections to the 418 and 9³ currents are often missed and we will cover all of that so folks can get a better idea of just how big this aeon thing really is.
Textbook List for Year One
By request, I compiled the textbook list for Year One, with the understanding that this is fairly stable. Before the January enrollment is released there will be a lot more information available, not only on the structure of our curriculum itself, but on where to get these books cheaply and even for free, so please wait for that if you’re not keen on spending $200 on these books. 
The Periodic Table of Wizardry and Alchemy

In this article we explore the significance of the atomic weight of elements. The periodic table is absolutely a part of magick, although its significance has been completely ignored in other occult circles.

Our Life in Consciousness

This article covers some ideas surrounding Consciousness. 
729’s life files

At the request of m1thr0s I was tasked with the duty of writing his introductory biography for the Anatomy of the Body of Light, in order to aid students in discerning why he might of headed in the direction he went. Originally these were just audio notes for myself, so we’re both pretty high, candid,  relaxed, and chill throughout, sitting in our room both snuggled up together. That makes them have a different tone than most of our intentional podcasts.
      I didn’t bother editing them either, as I felt like it was both unnecessary and would clear out some of the important sentences, so you’ll have to endure interference, hearing my write on my notepad, me eating cheesepuffs for a short time and some pauses. But it’s a very candid look into our conversations and a detailed look into Magister 729’s life, even if they’re more than a little depressing. If you don’t want to hear the depressing stuff, just skip to part 003. We didn’t get a chance to finish these, which is a real shame. I am not releasing these without his permission – the audio quality was good enough that he advised me to save them anyways, for those future members who were curious enough, after his death, once we had wrapped them up. (Again we never got to finish these.)  We both thought that he might live another 10 years, even though he really did not want to, but that ended up not being the case.

This is very important – please do not redistribute these to anyone who is not a member of TAI, I’m not sure how I feel about ever doing that yet, but I doubt I will ever release them to the public. 

They are in WAV lossless format, feel free to download and store them on your own device.

m1thr0s life part 001
m1thr0s life part 002
m1thr0s life part 003
One sidenote: When I mention that “I did that with you” in part 002 when he is talking about his mother, I am referring to my mistake of projecting my feelings for m1thr0s onto several other wrong people in my life, before I met him and understood what all of the signs were trying to point me to during my life, something I will have to go into detail eventually. m1thr0s and I have a very long history together and it would take too long to lay it all out here, but what I was referring to was the relationship with Macrocosm, and the forgetfulness we experience when incarnating, since I do believe in reincarnation. 

Finally we are starting a casual League of Legends group and all are welcome to join us in this endeavor. League is a free to play game that takes anywhere from 20-30 minutes to play, so it’s perfect for busy lifestyles. As always you can usually catch us in the Discord chat room to find a match mate or talk about Abrahadabra subjects. 

The Dragon Podcast
Still working on this one, it will be released in a few days. It might actually be really really cool once it’s done – shout out to one of our members, Lugh, for the idea. 


The Abrahadabra Institute

our life in consciousness

“The Khabs is in the Khu, not the Khu in the Khabs.” This is one of the simplest statements at the start of the Nu Aeon, that reasserts the definite nature of Man as a divine being. It can also be stated “The Star is in the Spirit, not the Spirit in the Star.” Since the class A publication also asserts that each and every one of us, Man or Woman, is a Star, then this line becomes crucial to understanding the physics of Stars. Another phrase we decided to use around TAI to help people understand their nature is *consciousness stars* a term which illuminates consciousness itself as something which is driving this whole *Life* mess to begin with, and is intimately linked to the idea of Stars. 
       Finally we have the assertion that there is a division between that illuminating, knowledgeable and willful consciousness and our state of being within matter or, within our body. 
      Why would a seemingly limitless, intelligent and creative force, like the personification of consciousness, limit itself within forgetful and limited flesh? Why would beings we humans have visualized as Vishnu, Hermes and Bes, want to limit themselves by becoming humans or any other super intelligent, self-aware species?
      We are the Gods, there is no doubt about that. There is No God but Man, as we say often enough around here – only degrees of power, I might add. The gods incarnate all the time amidst us – we see them do this blatantly and obviously as Krsna or Ravana, historically, but the everyday aspects of God or Goddess amongst us are just as interesting and wonderful. The Hellenic people knew full well that Hermes was the supreme personification of Man’s highest ideal, the true friend of Man, and that he manifested as Man, from within – he didn’t galavant around the skies on his pegasus – these were metaphors for the sacred reality, the initiatory mysteries.  In our own often miserable and challenging experiences throughout life, many times it is not obvious that we are completely divine in nature, and eternal, even though many authoritative doctrines try to inform us of this, such as the Bhagavad Gita and the Tibetan Book of the Dead. 
      What is the purpose of incarnating in the flesh, if not to play video games, drink beer and eat pizza? Probably to gather something or learn something here we could not possibly attain in loftier abodes. Entertainment may seem like a cheap answer, but in an eternity, boredom is a very real hazard. Lack of new things and new experiences could very well lead to depression and inhibition. Even if consciousness doesn’t need to procreate – it does need to be able to sustain itself under the forces of entropy.
       Some believe that all experience is necessary and what is wanted by Nuit. Nuit is called the Star Goddess, or the Queen of Infinite Space. In my experience, she is very fiercely opposed to pain and injustice, and isn’t the impassive experience hoarder who cares nothing for the pains of mortals, as some metaphysicists claim. These mortals are herself, and her consort. If she is not the personification of half the relationship between Yin and Yang, then she is very close to this Taijitu’s comprehensive reality. 
      No, Nuit is a being of perfect justice, but she is also a mathematician. The pains of this Great Work are going to be worth it in the end, when we attain what it is we seek. As I have already stated, I believe this end goal is the enormous playground we are building for our selves. Everything from the concept of family and friends, games and good food, is all part of the Great Work, arising from necessity and the opinion of our greatest authorities that these things will keep us warm and comfortable through the long watch of eternity. 
      The calculation that we would do better incarnating and gathering experiences from a position of limitation is Nuit’s mind at work. Each of us is a Star or Universe, a point within the consciousness web building a world within ourselves of pure pleasure and sophistication. Yet there is another purpose to this work and it is not insignificant. Consciousness must be trained. To know that your head is a head and your hands and feet are what they are, (the basis of the Sephiroth as a control panel) you really have to experience that firsthand and get it drilled into your mind by constantly walking, getting to know the way mind works in a 3D environment and with other consciousnesses when encountered. Life isn’t perfect, but it’s the best solution she could come up with, compromising between the two great forces of Yin and Yang.
      Each and every one of us are mirror variations of the Tree and the Star, the map of the Body of Light that expresses what we are, in mechanical terms, just as a map of the human body doesn’t fully describe human diversity, so the variables in each human are both essential and unsurprisingly present. How can a point of consciousness, a star, know what victory is, if they have never tasted the glory of Netzach? How can anyone know the relationship of Binah and Chokmah to a child, if they have never been a father, a mother or a child? These are the qualities of a star that are inherent to each of us, and must be mastered inside of a classroom environment suited to Stars – baby universes. That’s Earth. Earth is a lot of other things, too, but it serves as a pretty harsh learning environment for Stars.
      Nuit, or Mother Nature, is a hard teacher, but she isn’t insane, as some in the Thelemic community would have us believe, no more than a mathematician’s’ abstractions are insanity in the minds of those who cannot comprehend equations. We have to always presume that the temporary suffering is an unavoidable side effect of a worthwhile goal. She and her consort, the personification of Father Nature, “Had” the winged serpent of light, both go out of their way to assure us of this reality, that they recognize suffering as something that we are going through, and that this is not the ultimate goal of the Great Work, only shadows that pass and are done.
      The admixture of Yin, Yang and Jen appears to be at the heart of our weird environment. Matter itself is the personification of the Yin principle – perfectly receptive and earnestly devoted to Yang, following like a mare. The Jen flux emerges from these two forces, according to traditional Chinese doctrine, at which point the so-called “10,000 things” emerge – that is, everything else we can classify, from chemicals to species. While some presume that this is a random occurrence, for those who allow for the possibility that the universe is intentional. Not in the way we might think – a VR programme or some all-powerful lonely meta-being, but as a place for our own minds to rest, forget and create something better. Most of all, it’s a place to extract those parts of our self – Yin and Yang, that interfere with our perfect state of being in harmony – what the Nipponese refer to as ‘wa’.
      The tales of consciousness gone amok in space play on our imaginations. Some of the stories are derived from earlier true stories or ancient myths from hundreds of years ago. The tales of stranded explorers eating each other, the myth of the wendigo, or the other various grotesque expressions of intelligent life (as it reaches higher levels of refinement equal to Man) are well known. This is a very spooky world already – we don’t need space to amplify the strange phenomenon going on with consciousness. Placing the phenomenon in the context of space makes it more believable to people who have fooled themselves into believing they’re exempt from the natural law of the universe. And yet these tales often reflect the reality we live in every day. No one is immune to the effects of consciousness. If we don’t know what to expect from the effects of consciousness, our work with Mutational Alchemy can be unnecessarily alarming. If we don’t know what to do when being confronted with shards of our own rogue mind, either internal or external, then we can find ourselves standing knee-deep in shit. This can happen spontaneously, at any time, not just during magic mushroom trips.  This is why we always practice *Right Thinking* and *Right Action* in accordance with traditional Eastern doctrine. Knowing what to expect and knowing what to do about it is very important. We can attain this mental asana by researching what others have gone through.
      We see hints of wild, untrained consciousness all the time in mythology and folklore: the Fae, or fair-folk, elves and dryads, to weirder, rarer things that feed off energy or terrify incarnate beings, such as the Mothman or Jersey Devil. Some of these other mythological beings appear to be just a step above Man itself, shamans who quit their physical body a long time ago, the sásq’ets or Sasquatch, and the Arcadian satyrs headed by Silenus. 
      Consciousness is capable of immense diversity of form, and it’s easy for any point of consciousness (a Star) to travel vast distances in a blink. This is what happens when we get pulled up into other realms, or consciously go there. There is a deep and complex perfection beneath all of the chaos, but that perfection, encapsulated within images like the Adam Kadmon Series by m1thr0s, is necessarily always on the hunt for a greater reality, a Completion that finally achieves *Maximum Inertia* and *Minimum Stress* once and for all. That calculation is beyond our ability to solve, and yet we are all part of the ongoing processing Nuit is performing in order to get all of us there.
       At core we are all essentially bound up with the Jen flux, which was created by Yin and Yang itself out of pure necessity. This is what the various authors of antiquity, the enlightenment and even modern times are talking about when they posit that we are all one at heart. Yet this unity cannot be undermined by the pointless argument that we must not partake in all of the powers of the Tree at an appropriate time: the works of Mars, of Geburah, and the Lunar, sexual, psychotropic illusions of Yesod. 
      The only law that must be obeyed is to never interfere with the Will of another. This is why child abuse is the clearest and most unbreakable law of the Liber al Vel Legis triad: any interference with the child’s sexual development is one of the basest of crimes next to religious coercion, since it spins a Star out of its natural orbit, often irreparably.  (“… acts invasive of another individual’s equal rights are implicitly self-aggressions. … Such acts as rape, and the assault or seduction of infants, may therefore be justly regarded as offences against the Law of Liberty, and repressed in the interests of that Law.” – Aleister Crowley, The Law is For All)
        The rest of the playing field is fair game, as long as it doesn’t interfere with the trajectory of another star, right? Well, not exactly. Any action could potentially, adversely affect another star. What’s more, stars kill and eat each other all the time. So we have to presume our morality arises from some real need, otherwise, it’s probably pretty dangerous for us to go around asserting right and wrong. It may be that intent matters a lot, but it doesn’t wholly forgive unconscious ignorance. The answer to our puzzle is solved if we approach things from the perspective that we’re all experiencing what we do to each other, that we’re one, deep down, beyond the place where the 10,000 things arise. Well, maybe *three* would be more accurate. This is Abrahadabra of course, you’ll never hear us trying to wrench the Crown of All away from triangles.