what is self-initiation?


Lately I have been getting a lot of requests for more information about initiation. It’s not surprising to me – many are unfamiliar with these classical Hermetic concepts, which are stripped out of, or just missing, from revisionist texts. The concept of initiation is so basic to Hermetic praxis, some of the older texts presume that one understands what is meant by the term. While self-initiation is always a respected process in the Hermetic ouevre, there is a very clear difference between self-initiation alone, and initiation into a lineage.

I suspect not everyone will be interested in the latter, and that’s perfectly fine – our focus has always been on self-initiation – lineaged initiation only becoming possible by two things: m1thr0s’ decision to formalize Mutational Alchemy as school, rather being a mere practice or book on a particular hybridized branch of Hermetic Alchemy, and second, a student dedicated enough to spend 10 years in a formalized student-teacher relationship with him. We still offer Mutational Alchemy lessons to new students, because it was always that way around here, but after doing this for a few years, it became clear that self-initiation was not enough. Individuals were struggling with the concepts surrounding Mutational Alchemy. We figured out that if we did not form a lineage and continue this praxis, we would not be able to return to the work  later on, for example if reincarnation is a reality, and we had some suspicions that this was the case. I am certain of it, actually, but one should always doubt one’s own certainties.)

What is Initiation?

Initiation, according to Oxford English Dictionary, is “1.1 The action of beginning, entering upon, or ‘starting’ something; the fact of being begun; beginning, commencement, origination.” So right away we can see that the key ingredient here is intent, really the seed element of magick itself – conscious action. The definition also means that everyone can be initiated – the act of will, deciding to practice magick, is an initiation in and of itself. What about the higher echelons of gnosis, can anyone access them and be initiated into the highest realizations? Our answer will always be a resounding yes. It may not be easy, but the simple axiom “Every Man and Every Woman is a Star” should be enough for us to presume that every man and every woman is capable of initiation into the highest mysteries of stars,  or more accurately, self-made universe. Buddhism has maintained from the very beginning that enlightenment – gnosis in the West, happens in an instant, and can be triggered by seemingly random, insignificant things.

The Abrahadabra Institute has always prided itself on self-initiation, as a way of bypassing all of the fluffy bullshit and rigmaroles that old-aeon organizations such as AMORC, The Golden Dawn and BOTA make their members go through. These initiatory practices can be powerful – only inasmuch as the particular initiate is powerful. So at all times our goal is to raise power, and we do this with several tools. The focus is to hack away the inessentials and achieve *Maximum Inertia* and *Minimum Stress* – perfect equilibrium despite the forces under our control. Tools like the Da’ath hack, TwinStar and TwinTrees offer us a way to achieve this equilibrium, at least for a short time. The more one works with the mirrors the more this effect becomes manifest. They are, in effect, reflections of the perfect Man – all of them are you, at least at some level of your being. It may be lying face down in the mud buried under a ton of garbage that one has accumulated, but it is there inside you, somewhere. The function of the mirrors is described in the title – it allows one to see one’s self as they truly are – beyond the lower rungs of the Body of Light (the physical body.) 

The Heart of the Master

Between the worlds, beyond consciousness and being, there lies a force that is likened to the greatest, most authoritative, all-powerful Master across all time and space – the so-called Heart of the Master. It has also been referred to as the Logos in Hellenic thought, Ehyeh ’ăšer ’ehyeh, (I Am that I Am) in Israel, and the Tao by the Chinese. Although the conceptualization of this mysterious secret heart differs slightly from civilization to civilization where it has been identified, the essential aspect of its identity: omniscience and omnipresence is undisputed. It is possible that it is nearly omnipotent, but this omnipotence is split between two great aspects of intelligence with equally matched power, Yin and Yang. These are all mere theories. The loftiness of the concept prevents any concrete knowledge. The goal of all initiatory praxis is to achieve singularity, at least for a moment, with this sacred heart. This is the goal of the Great Work, or Magnum Opus, and the purpose and function of the Philosopher’s Stone.

     Where a civilization has identified this overarching force, it is also accompanied by theories on a way to achieving harmony with it. The Israelites composed and followed the way through mysticism – prayer, ritual, study and righteousness (right thinking, right action, as it is called in the East.) The Hellenic people pursued the Logos through analytical study, philosophy and other intellectual pursuits using the basic premise that the way is supremely logical, and reflecting this nature is the best way to emulate it. The Taoists in China composed poetry in the form of Zen koans and so forth, in order to show the way, and the I Ching and T’ai Hsuan Ching – these were studies of the code of the way. This turned out to be right on point – our entire DNA strand reflects the structure of the I Ching, as I have discussed before in DNA and the I Ching Explained. 

The basis of Hermeticism was the initiation process into this great mystery of the intelligence that was the Logos, personified as Hermes in some cases. Much of the great mystery school doctrine has been lost, due to iconoclasm, but we do know that initiation formed the backbone of their popularity. Where today, religion is mostly an empty ritual that mimics the old rites, Hermetic, Mithraic and Eleusinian mysteries used *real* sacrament and *real* phenomenon as a scaffolding for their way of life and that way of life included ecstatic rites. Today Hermeticism has lived on in many ways, from rave festivals that reflect the Dionysian and Eleusinian parties, to the preservation of Hermetic texts and grimoires in the Western tradition. Scientific and philosophical discourse, the legacy of Hermeticism, is everywhere in our world, not just in a few cities, and all nations benefit from advances in knowledge, very rapidly, without political barrier.

      While physical alchemy evolved into modern chemistry, internal alchemy has remained in a state of abysmal stagnation since the beginning of the Enlightenment era. Philosophy, science and politics have advanced by leaps and bounds, while nothing has been done on the subject of Hermetic Alchemy for hundreds of years. The last major update that Kabbalah received was in the work of Isaac Luria; the tarot, with Eliphas Levi; the star thesis of human evolutionary dharma, Aleister Crowley (one could certainly argue that Isaac Luria’s thesis is a proto-star theory, especially considering the emphasis on Ain Soph Aur, the introduction of Da’ath and other very crucial keys to Body of Light theory.)  In recent times, Ray Sherwin birthed Chaos Magick, while Anton Lavey ignited the Left Hand Path. Both of these new ideas have something to do with internal alchemy, but they have not yet found their bearings. I expect that in time these will attract more and more attention, as they recognize, within their doctrine, a fundamental reality about Man that many old aeon organizations have forgotten: we want to be free, and powerful. Power is almost always a dirty word in occult organizations, and it even shows in the OTO as a sort of lackluster effort to de-emphasize the third chapter of the Book of the Law as well as not mentioning any swear words like: satanism, sex, authority, combat, martial theurgy or anything that might possibly drag them out of the previous aeon.

 This is where The Abrahadabra Institute diverges from the normal party line, quite sharply. The essence of Chaos Magick and Satanism are welcomed here, if not so much the dogmas and hurf-blurfing that has cropped up around the two circles. Namely, for Chaos Magick, what we like is the principle of freedom in magick, being able to adjust our methodology on the fly without any regard for traditions, rules, or standards – especially where these are holding us back from power, brilliance and ecstasy. Satanism has largely declined into puerile horseshit in the last few decades, and has nothing in common with us, but the roots in classical left-hand path ideology are obvious, that is, the emphasis on the sinister, and an adversarial asana to entire universe itself, with the aim of exerting our Will. This is directly connected to the secret inner head of our order, spoken of extensively in some areas of the forum. There is some elitism here. This doesn’t mean we have to be assholes to anybody, or anything like that, but we won’t lower our standards. This wouldn’t make a whole lot of sense anyways, since all Mutational Alchemy requires is the ability to count to ten. People tend to attach a lot of unnecessary complications to it that throws them off course, or they get distracted from the praxis by an overemphasis on the peculiarities of the meditations. This is usually just a distraction from the goal, which is gnosis. Without the initial motivation to do something, anything, instead of constantly being lead around like sheep, nothing will happen. That’s usually the demon people are grappling with – “there’s nothing to it, it’s all a bunch of bullshit” whispering at the back of the mind. I have seen persons go well out of their way to try and prove this subconsciously and it’s pretty stupid to watch. They usually end up being very lazy practitioners who cannot follow simple instructions which would lead them to the gnosis they hope for.

Are We There Yet?

The time it takes to earn an initiation depends on the goal, the choices you make along the way, your true will, and how hard you are willing to work at it. Many kinds of initiation, those linked to one godform or another, for example, have their corresponding organization, as it is with the Vaishnavites and ISKCON, for example, or the Catholic Church and the Franciscans, but the initiation which grants certain heightened levels of gnosis is notoriously spontaneous. In the West these people are called adepts, Other organizations offer initiation based on the judgement of one’s peers – only involving Man in the process, as it is within Masonic, Satanic and Golden Dawn organizations. Some organizational initiations take years to achieve, and are managed by higher ups in that organization, for example, most martial arts lineages. Many lineages include rituals that go along with the initiation, that can last anywhere from a moment of trial (such as in the Bujinkan) or a few hours, as with many Masonic grades. For those curious about The Abrahadabra Institute initiation for students, I will lay this all out below. Keep in mind we do not provide organizational initiation on demand. I have had new members want to show up to my house and be “initiated” but there is no initiation for new members beyond what is performed when your certificate is produced. 

Our certificate is sealed with silver wax, using our TwinStar emblem. The process of creating and sealing the certificate involves a kind of ping – the intelligences that we serve analyze everyone and give me feedback on what sort of an individual – a star – you are, and I proceed from there to determine your coursework. This is an on-the-fly type of initiation process that would only be allowable by a dedicated Hierophant or Priestess – the Magus. The method has never failed me to this date on illuminating the qualities of one or another individual. We believe that it is divine providence that leads one to TAI, and that we are concealed from those who are unworthy, so this initiation is already the result of a prior initiation process that has occured, one that you may or may not have noticed! This sort of initiation is not spoken of very often, but it is one of the more important ways we have at our disposal of filtering out the wrong sorts of people. The Jewish Rabbis use this to great effect by refusing curious converts three times. Nowadays another explanation has been invented explaining why this happens the way it does, but in essence it’s a way for H’ashem to refuse them, or for potential problems to find their way to the surface. H’ashem is the inner head of the order, in the Hebrew religion. 

The Abrahadabra Institute initiates members, but, becoming a member of the Institute does not mean you are part of our lineage, just as someone on the exclusive invitation list of the Rites of Eleusis was not necessarily an Eleusinian Hierophant. It is not necessary to be initiated into TAI itself to reap the benefits of learning from us, and not everyone is going to be fully aligned with our lineage. Initiation into certain lineages aligns one to the forces that govern those lineages. Someone who wishes to be initiated into The Abrahadabra Institute lineage,  is a person who is no longer interested in pursuing any other path or lineage. That is why the initiation takes place after 3 years, and requires two graded tests, one ungraded test, and several essays. Initiation into our organization at the level of Mutational Alchemist is a privilege. It isn’t just handed out to anyone who wants it. Why the fuck would we want to do that? Even the initial neophyte initiation carries some requirements with it, but the title of Mutational Alchemist requires a certain amount of in person training and observation, to make sure you meet our quality standards. Initiation as a Mutational Alchemist will never be granted remotely, and it will not be granted just because you ask or you are in a hurry to get it. After the third year, further grades of initiation are rigorous and will require a lot of work on your end, but they will also introduce you to the most powerful meditation practice that this world, or any other world, has to offer. If anyone wants a fast track to enlightenment in any trash lineage, feel free to join an organization that specializes in sloppy, and never updates its methodology as there’s plenty of them out there. 

I have no doubt that limiting access to a perceived occult value will piss some people off, or frustrate them, but I don’t really give a damn. If rank and lineage are to have a place at TAI they need to actually mean something, and therefore we won’t hand them out to every demanding newbee off the streets who thinks they are entitled to it.  

So how does this special TAI initiation happen? Once the testing is completed, then students will be invited to our initiation rituals. This is done in person and once a year, for all third year students who want to graduate. The process takes about 3 days and you will be taken to a secret location for the initiation. More details will be explained in the years to come. 

How Long Does it Take, and What if I Fuck Up?

While it takes about 3 years for an official initiation into the Abrahadabra Institute, self initiations can be spontaneous, there’s really no way to measure them. Intentionally setting out on a path is a form of initiation as I have already discussed earlier. Intensive study and practice means everything in this work. Not everyone is cut out for that and this is only as it should be. When working with the mirrors especially, which are self-initiation gadgets, basically, they will meet you more than halfway. It is not untoward to work on a mirror for up to 8 hours at a time, especially when we are partaking of sacraments. This sort of dedication can and has caused outright miracles to occur. I’ve seen it before and heard others share their stories about the TwinStar efficacy when used with strong intent and need. 

So the answer is, it’s really up to you. No one can know your own dharma or path better than you yourself do. Gnothi Seauton. 

As for the dangers of initiation – the shamanic death, for example, a well known initiation process with particular side effects, has always been fraught with imagined perils, this is why so many often fail the initiation process. Letting go of fear is crucial to apprehending an initiation, especially the major ones. Nothing in life is completely safe, but learning to trust your tools is part of the process of preparing for the mental asana of not being afraid of anything. These questions don’t really become an issue for an experienced Magus, archaic or modern. In the past this was all done with the vehicles of the previous aeon; the religions of that aeon, the pomp of ceremony and certain archaic tools. We still use these today but they are not enough to engage the velocities we are aiming for here with our focus on Abrahadabra rather than merely the Sephiroth. Once a Magus reaches the apex of the praxis at year three, he or she has already seen what the tools in Mutational Alchemy can do and this reduces the fear factor that kills the experience. In other words – the study time and experience matters, this is exactly why we don’t do lineage initiations, as we derive our authority from some pretty spooky cats, and they don’t tolerate boring assholes or cowards. The student needs that time to grow, learn and mature.


the ultimate guide to the dwarven god

“Ptah conceives the world by the thought of his heart and gives life through the magick of his Word.”

                                                – km.t

While an article on Hephaestus alone could be considered useful, any discussion about Hephaestus always seems a bit incomplete without including other archetypal craftsmen, creators or dwarves. Hellenic concepts of deity stay very close to humans themselves – all of the Olympians had the same old vices and soap opera drama that plague us. In some ways, this Greek pragmatism is admirable. There is No God but Man, right? In other ways it fails to give us anywhere to actually go. The Egyptians were to the Hellenic people as elves were to dwarves – xenophobic, with intricate and ornate rituals and magickal temple societies, they despised their Hellenic conquerors who were far more focused and streamlined in both their thinking and in their approaches to a practical balance between military and religion. Yet both societies had much to learn from each other – something the Greeks picked up on immediately as they began curiously learning all they could about Kemetic religious and occult thought. The Egyptians refrained from enthusiastically embracing the inevitable change, and their civilization crumbled. Today, their genetic lineage certainly survives, but the Islamic totalitarianism governing Egypt shuts down any progress regarding magick or even religion.
      The dwarf is a powerful image in our species. It has been with us since the dawn of time and continues on in our modern imagination – practically every RPG and fantasy movie has a dwarf in it, somewhere. The archetype of the dwarf is important in magick as it is considered to be not only synonymous with the higher self, (“But the “Small Person” of Hindu mysticism, the Dwarf insane yet crafty of many legends in many lands, is also this same “Holy Ghost”, or Silent Self of a man, or his Holy Guardian Angel.” The Law is for All, Aleister Crowley,) but is seen in three very important, almost indispensable godforms:[Continue Reading]

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מִצְרָ֫יִם (borderlands) of religious thought: abraham

This series of articles is meant to attend to the concerns and thoughts of those who have religious tendencies, or, those who have to deal with religious family members on a regular basis. Parallels between those religions and the studies The Abrahadabra Institute is keenly interested in do exist. Yet we must  be careful in our theological deconstruction and ignore almost all post-modern thought on the matter; as well as a great deal of canonical thought. It does no one any good to constantly rename and refabricate ideas which have already been established, “Revision is the bane of syncreticism” yet this is exactly what most religious institutions do, constantly, from India in the Vedic tradition to the Catholic Church and their infamous appropriation of pagan gods and pagan holidays. (The most obvious being the bastardization of the name Yeheshuah into Jesus, pronounced in Latin as a homonym to the religious affirmation Hail Zeus – “Caesar’s Messiah: The Roman Conspiracy to Invent Jesus; Joseph Atwill) 

It turns out that anyone who pursues Perfection, especially the logical bridge to that Perfection: the Star Model of human evolutionary dharma, is part of the true religion as defined by Abraham himself. Anyone else who ignores this first basic directive is an infidel. Period.

         – Izi Ningishzidda


The reasons for dominating religious thought coming into being is obviously the existence, within humanity, of those who lust for power, which is only ever a vice of those who prefer not to think – and those who prefer that their subjects do not think. Today this is magnified in the free world where droves of people are leaving these religions as those who have no social ties to it find little sense or comfort to be had in the outdated and convoluted doctrines – many of which are soaked in the blood of the innocent. (The Dark Side of Christian History; Helen Ellerbe) I have said before many times that the crowning achievement of Europe was the founding of America and its constitution – and by Europe, I mean the real Europe. The one that invented Democracy and Hermetic Alchemy, and not the Church-dominated faction that tried to kill the Enlightenment movement which had been gestating within Europe from the very beginning. The religious ideas which have come to represent Europe in the minds of some people are not indigenous to Europe at all – they originate in the Middle East. For thousands of years, the Europeans became a civilized people under the influence of the pagan mystery cults (Mushrooms, Myth and Mithras: The Drug Cult that Civilized Europe; Carl P. Ruck) and indulged in drug-fueled parties which ignited powerful inspiration and innovation in virtually every area of society, from engineering to politics and philosophy, mathematics and, the forerunner of modern chemistry and science; alchemy. This sort of phenomenal power was seen as something that had to be controlled by the really truly evil forces of that world, or those who were merely ignorant. 
      A few years ago as I started re-examining my Jewish roots I began by holding the magnifying glass over the guy who started it all – this whole crazy nomadic tribe of outcast revolutionaries and thinkers and sluts (mansluts too) known as Jews. What made the man Abraham so famous? It was around this same time that I was falling in love with Abrahadabra. I didn’t miss the etymological similarities in the names: Abrahadabra, Abrasax, Abraham. What was this guy all about, and why does everyone call the most annoying religions in the world “Abrahamic?” (For the purposes of avoiding confusion, I will avoid using the more Semitic version “Avraham”)
      Monotheism is a dirty word to most occultists. It’s anathema to almost every pagan, and it’s practically a curse word amongst atheists. It signifies a tyrannical Church that flung Europe into the Dark Ages; it stands for a misogynistic religion that has heaped abuses on humans in the Middle East. After studying the history books, neither of these unfortunate cults seemed to me to fair reflections of Abraham of Ur, whom these cults claim as their originator. He was merely a Man, who got some strange ideas no one had ever really had before…namely, that there was only one true almighty force in the universe, that all the gods of men were false, and that man had a real destiny ahead of him: nothing less than perfection itself. It was an idea of Man that didn’t have the species made to please the whim and whimsy of whatever god or goddesses was in vogue at the time – ruled mostly by priests, who all too often abused their subjects.
      According to tradition he began his journey to this new idea of monotheism by smashing the idols in his father’s shop, a clay worker, who made idols among other things. No one knows if the story is really true, but the profession of a clay worker would have been a high demand profession amongst the Sumerians. They required constant steady supply of fresh clay tablets for written records (they recorded everything and invented writing) and they did worship a huge range of deities, manufacturing an enormous amount of clay statues which might have been used in a similar fashion to the way Indians use clay idols today…
      According to Genesis Rabbah 38.13 Rabbi Hiyya, a first-generation Jewish sage, tells the following story (Skip to the video below if you want to watch it instead):
      Terah, Abraham’s father, was an idol manufacturer who once went away and left Abraham in charge of the store. A man walked in and wished to buy an idol. Abraham asked him how old he was and the man responded “fifty years old.” Abraham then said, “You are fifty years old and would worship a day old statue!” At this point the man left ashamed.
       Later, a woman walked into the store and wanted to make an offering to the idols. So Abraham took a stick, smashed the idols and placed the stick in the hand of the largest idol. When Terah returned he asked Abraham what happened to all the idols. Abraham told him that a woman came in to make an offering to the idols. Then the idols argued about which one should eat the offering first. Then the largest idol took the stick and smashed the other idols.
      Terah responded by saying that “They are only statues and have no knowledge.” Whereupon Abraham responded by saying “You deny their knowledge, yet you worship them!” At which point Terah took Abraham to Nimrod.
      Nimrod proclaims to Abraham that we should worship fire. Abraham responds that water puts out fire. So Nimrod declares they worship water. Abraham responds that clouds hold water. So Nimrod declares they worship clouds. Abraham responds that wind pushes clouds. So Nimrod declares they worship wind. Abraham responds that people withstand wind.
      The story becomes a bit murky here. We don’t know much about Abraham’s beliefs at this point except that he really hates the idea of worshipping much of anything. Later on we do find out that he encounters mysterious strangers throughout his life which appear like mean (what the Sumerians would call Annuna Gods, or what we might call Angels today) and hears voices. 

From this story, which has happily escaped the notice of Christians for the most part, being part of the Hebrew ouevre, we can discern that Abraham was at the very least an unhappy young man who was dissatisfied not only with his life but with the people around him, being made to serve as little more than a glorified con artist (in his eyes) selling these idols. This is an early proto-philosophy that wasn’t very well documented within Sumer itself, but it’s hard to believe that Abraham didn’t actually exist, as much effort was spent cataloguing his genealogy. We can’t tell a lot more than this, except that he was probably pretty unpopular in Sumer and anywhere he went where superstition held great sway. Gods and the rites surrounding those gods were taken quite seriously by the Sumerians, although the people of Ur were actually a bit more fanatical than most, if we can tell anything from the life of Enheduanna, for example. We actually get a lot more information about the thought process of the youth Abraham when we get into his time of immigration. Here, we find someone who seems to believe in Mankind and doesn’t want to see Mankind bowing before anything except the goal of perfecting and completing themselves. He also hates wickedness, a trait he shares with one Sumerian deity in particular: the God Ningishzidda (“who directs speech aright, and who hates wickedness! ” – A balbale to Ningishzida (Ningishzida A): translation; Electronic Text Corpus of Sumerian Literature, Oxford <http://etcsl.orinst.ox.ac.uk/section4/tr4191.htm>.) We’ll cover this more later on below. I found this interesting and entertaining lecture by Dr. David Neiman on the hatred of wickedness regarding what is known of Abraham and his fam. You’ll need Amazon Prime to view it for free.

Abraham the Patriarch by Dr. Nieman

We know all of these facts: that Abraham believed in the power and importance of Man, especially, because that is what the covenant, the first covenant, entails. The voice that he hears commands him to “Walk before me and be perfect” (I’ve done away with the wholly stupid thees and thous for ya.) This foundational axiom should represent the entirety of monotheistic thought, yet it is treated with very little respect and attention by any of the so-called Abrahamic religions. They are far more interested in their cutesy wootsey little useless fucking holidays than the supreme commandment of the most high El Shaddai whom they claim filiality to. As we can see, the Abrahadabra Institute itself is far more of a fiduciary to these fundamental precepts that Abraham laid down. The acknowledgement of Perfection, specifically encapsulated in the axiom *Every Man and Every Woman is a Star,* or the doctrine of the Adam Kadmon, the blueprint of the most high we have not yet fulfilled, is entirely Abrahamic in a very real and tangible way. It turns out that anyone who pursues Perfection, especially the logical bridge to that Perfection: the Star Model of human evolutionary dharma, is part of the true religion as defined by Abraham himself. Anyone else who ignores this first basic directive is an infidel. Period. This infidelity to the original covenant permeates religious thought today, with every excuse in the book being thrown against *Perfection* for why Man is an inherently imperfect creature that must whine to some God about his sins and hope to be ushered into some absurd version of heaven no sane, freedom loving person – the magus, essentially – would agree to sign up for. It’s really quite disgusting.
      Innovative scientists, musicians, engineers, archaeologists and researchers of every stripe are exactly what we need to achieve Perfection. What we don’t need so much is dogma, and those expounding on that dogma in order to strip rights and freedoms from Man. 
      So who the fuck was Abraham talking to, out of the Sumerian pantheon itself? Was it an already identified god who had caught his attention? Recently I had a funny little encounter with m1thr0s in my dreamspace and he tells me that it’s the spirit of Man itself. While I don’t place a lot of importance of figuring out whether or not it’s my subconscious or really m1thr0s speaking to me, I do place importance on the powers of my dreams since they have always been powerful portents of my inner world and even the future, much like Abraham’s wife, Sarai. 

We don’t really know what she looked like, except that she was light skinned and from somewhere in Mesopotamia (modern day Iraq.) So she could have resembled any of the beauty queens pictured above. This photo was taken in front of the original gates of Babylon at an Iraqi beauty pageant in 2015.

Sarai was an intriguing figure in her own right. She had the ability to see into the future. She was clearly delineated in the scripture dismissively as “that woman” when the king of the foreign nation sees her. When relating her to Abraham she is called “Abraham’s wife” but when El Shaddai is addressing her, he calls her by her first name, Sarai (later it was changed to Sarah, essentially what we would call a magickal name today, that she earned.) El Shaddai also commands Abraham to obey his wife in all things.
      This isn’t the patriarch we are used to hearing about in diatribes on Christianity and the so-called “Abrahamic Religions.” As it turns out, there is absolutely nothing Abrahamic about either Christianity or Islam. Both Christianity and Islam emphasize male authority and are anti-abortion, whereas abortion – up until when the infant is almost fully out of the vagina of the woman, has never been forbidden in Israelite religious law. Abraham’s God was a feminist in a time of absolute male supremacy, a strong opponent of human, especially child sacrifice and other human rights atrocities, and the best advisor a human could hope for. El Shaddai, as the deity was known to her and Abraham, was a very mysterious figure, the awe inspiring voice of wisdom and mysterious power that set very strange events in motion.
      As I read more about Abraham I began to recognize the pattern of the intelligence working in his life as the one I too had experienced first hand with the TwinStar. The symmetry of Ningishzidda’s sigil mirrors the TwinStar, and although the true nature of the god of Abraham is no longer known to us, the symbol of Ningishzidda pops up once again in the symmetry of the winged beings on either side of the Ark of the Covenant. These twin forms are very important to the TwinStar/Tetractys. We find them in the beautiful architecture of the pagan tribe of Thamud in the photo below, and we continue to find these twinforms scattered throughout history in various broken half completed forms, as if the mind of man was just skirting around the final image. Even the name El Shaddai, when we replace the “El” honorific with the Sumerian honorific “Nin Shaddai” sounds and looks alot like “Ningishzidda;” and there are many similarities between Ningishzidda and El Shaddai, beginning with the serpent iconography prevalent in much of the Torah. The simple image of a serpent twining around a pole is central to the Exodus text. Opinions on what it meant are convoluted and vary from interpreter to interpreter, depending on their originating perspective. When I read the text I get an image of an intense battle between forces of the Jen element, on both the male and female sides. This is not a war of Heaven or Earth, but a war of Man taking place on the only possible battlefield such a war could exist – within Man and between Man, as it is revealed in the doctrine of the Tai Hsuan Ching. YHVH itself, the banner for a particular instance of El Shaddai comes out female in the bigrams. This informs us that for much of the journey of the Israelites, the deity was female, while Abraham’s deity was distinctly male – as was Ningishzidda. 
      There are a few other similarities between El Shaddai and Ningishzidda. El Shaddai is said to be more powerful than all of the other Gods. Ningishzidda is said to have power over anyone who has a personal God – no matter what. The Sumerian literature on Ningishzidda states; “Any youth who has a personal god is at your disposal, there where your commands are issued.” (A balbale to Ninĝišzida {Ninĝišzida A} ETCSL translation : t.4.19.1 <http://etcsl.orinst.ox.ac.uk/cgi-bin/etcsl.cgi?text=t.4.19.1#>) 
      I don’t believe this pattern, the Tetractys, was concealed purposefully from the mind of Man, as we see it glorified with Pythagoras. He paid for this open revelation with his life. Punishment upon punishment is meted out to those who dare meddle with any fire from heaven that might ignite Mankind. It is only since the founding of America that a genius could truly feel somewhat secure in his or her own skin, speaking truth to power, which is why I think that America is such a remarkable place. 
      Man sorely needs truth and real power, all of the things many past Masters were trying but failing to spark in the world; and now it seems like we are on the edge of losing everything. We are not going to lose everything, but there is much that remains to be done. Part of that work lies with Alchemy itself and perfecting the work of Completion that began with Abraham so many thousands of years ago. 
      Perfection is the goal of Mutational Alchemy as well. “Give me an ounce of Perfection and you can have happiness” m1thr0s used to say to me. He didn’t trust happiness and he didn’t see much point in pursuing it.
      So, while I am convinced Abraham was a real figure in history, and I do believe he was from Ur, I do not think he went to Egypt. I think this connection came from a diaspora of mixed Mesopotamia individuals who followed the new idea of monotheism he founded, and, who were related to him. These, I think, later, did in fact travel to Egypt. Let’s examine the word for Egypt in the old language:

Mitsrayim is defined in Strong’s Hebrew:

Mitsrayim: a son of Ham, also his desc. and their country in N.W. Africa
Original Word: מִצְרָ֫יִם
Part of Speech: proper name, of a territory and people, feminine; masculine; masculine plural
Transliteration: Mitsrayim
Phonetic Spelling: (mits-rah’-yim)
Short Definition: Egypt 

(Note that no reason is given why it should mean “Egypt” in every context. Also, Ham is the son of Abraham. By tradition since he was born of a black-skinned girl who was his servant, very traditional Jews regard all black people as their close family members – essentially the other half of Israel itself.)

In the NAS Exhaustive Concordance:

Word Origin of uncertain derivation
Definition: a son of Ham, also his desc. and their country in N.W. Africa
NASB Translation
Egypt (588), Egypt’s (2), Egyptian (1), Egyptians (87), Mizraim (4).

Brown-Driver-Briggs gets even more interesting:

מִצְרַ֫יִם  proper name, of a territory and people, feminine Exodus 10:7, masculine Exodus 12:33,
masculine plural Genesis 41:55 etc. (see below)

2), Egypt, Egyptians (Phoenician מצרם; Assyrian Mªƒªr(u), Muƒru, Miƒir, DlPar 308 SchrCOT Glossary KGF 246 ff., Tel Amarna Miƒrî, WklTA 39 * BezBM 152, and Mašrî Wkll.c.; Arabic Cairo, Egypt (Spiro): Minean Miƒru HomA and A. (1892), 125; see EbÄgM 71 ff.; ᵐ5 Αιγυπτος; — derivatives and form dubious; יִַ֯ם usually regarded as dual term. (Upper and Lower Egypt? compare DiGenesis 10:6), but as locative ending EMeyGeschichte. I, § 42 BaNB p. 319 R. 5; JenZA iv (1889), 268 ff. thinks מִצְרַיִם absolute formed by analogy of מַיִם, שָׁמַיִם from Miƒrî (compare Tel Amarna); see further Wklinfra, near the end); — ׳מ Genesis 13:1 +; מִצְרָ֑יִם Genesis 37:36 +; מִצְרַיְמָה Genesis 12:10 12t., מִצְרָ֑יְמָה Genesis 12:11 14t.; —

b. combinations are:-1׳מ as limit of motion: יָדַד מצרימ(הׅ 2. of people:

a. in table of nations, personified as second son of Ham Genesis 10:6 = 1 Chronicles 1:8, compare Genesis 10:13 = 1 Chronicles 1:11.

So what we have here is a word that really just means “borderlands,” and has its etymological roots in Phoenician and Assyrian. These are cultures which would have very little, if any, contact with Egypt. They would not have had a word for Egypt in Abraham’s time. Clearly the Israelites eventually came to Egypt, and I will get to that later. What did מִצְרַ֫יִם mean in Abraham’s native tongue, which we may assume was a Sumerian dialect? We could examine parts of the word that sound a bit like Mitzrayim…

Dead – MITU
Dead Ones – MITUTU
Dead Person – MITU
Dead Will Be More Numerous Than The Living – ELI BALTUTI IMA”IDU

Nothing else I could find…a fairly fruitless, though inexhaustive search, but considering that some scholars believed that Abraham was from the Iron Age, there might be little to find anyways. There is a clue found in the work of Gudea, the patesi of Lagash. He imported a rare materials from the Gulf for his commissioned works, including the rare diorite. This means the Sumerians were connected to the people of the SouthEastern gulf, now known as the Persian Gulf! Hold on to that thought for now. 
      There’s another angle to all of this and that is the Saudi tribe, and their religion of Islam, which insists that Abraham was also a father of their people. They have stuck with this narrative since the time before Mohammed! The only things the Torah informs us about Abrahams’ sojourn out of the lands of Ur (remember this was recounted and written down from oral tradition only hundreds of years later in Babylon, so it’s got some distortion in it) is that Ur was experiencing a famine and that is why he went down to “Mitsrayim.” I might add that we DO know, now, that there was a major flood in Mesopotamia that was a fairly significant horror in the minds of the people there, and even though it didn’t cover the whole world, it must have seemed that way to the poor souls caught in its wake. This was the end of the Ice Age and it was a flood the size of which we will see in coming years with our global warming crisis. The praeter-human intelligence directing Noah to build a boat is the very same intelligence we are tracking when we use the TwinStar or Tetractys of the Decad. It also shows up in Abraham’s interactions with what he would have known as the “Anunna gods”, what the Europeans call “angels” today, and in Sarai’s ability to see into the future. These Annuna Gods (sometimes erroneously referred to as Annunaki) would have been the intelligences he saw value in and the blasphemy against the empty lifeless and meaningless idols he supposedly so despised. 
       So back to the journey out of Ur. To reach Egypt, Abraham and his entourage would have had to journey across very inhospitable environs and then we are expected to believe he uses his skills and education as a diplomat to charm the Pharaoh and his court? No. How would he even know the Kemetic language? There was no exchange between Egypt and Sumer that we know of – not at this early stage. They might have some distant memory of coming out of Africa but that would have taken place a few, if not tens of thousands of years before the time of Abraham. We are told he goes “down” (The Sumerians were smart enough to know that rivers flowed south!) to the Mizrayim, which is as we have already discussed NOT translated as Egypt, but just “Borderlands.” What is south of Ur?
       None other than the seat of power in the Middle East, even today – Arabia. Riyadh isn’t the original capitol, but it would make sense to “go down” to where these powerful tribes were to escape the famine. They would have been able to follow the road along the sea in relative food security – the ocean is a major source of free food. The Sumerians had a long history of cooperating with and intermarrying other nations, but at the time they were not on great terms with the Assyrians and Akkadians to the North, and it may be that the South was the best place to go. 
       Curiously enough, the ruling clan of Arabia and Mecca at a much later date was the House of Hashem, (Hashem is one of the more famous names of the Israelite god, associated with his shadow assassin form that he took when he destroyed his own temple at the hands of Babylon.) who were later ousted by the House of Saud. The House of Hashem today rules Jordan and claims to to descend from the prophet Mohammed’s grandfather. 
       It’s not popular to study the southern tribes in Ancient Near East studies, for whatever reason, so interactions between the Sumerians and the southern folk are not covered often in the history of the Middle East. 
      The distance between the Great Ziggurat of Ur, a landmark that clearly denotes the approximate area of Abraham’s home, and Riyadh, is about 200 miles. That seems like a huge distance, but most people can cover at least 5-10 miles a day, and if they are on an ass or camel, they can cover a much farther distance. It would be within the range of Abraham and his entourage, and it would be a sensible place to go to find security, food, and water. The Arabs have been dealing with a shortage of water for thousands of years and their expertise concerning wells is remarkable. So there would be no shortage of water. Settlements in Arabia have been found clearly going back to 2000 BCE, so the timing is right for a citizen of Ur to have fled the famines that struck Mesopotamia (due to the over-irrigation of the salt water table) and gone seeking greener pastures. Those pastures wouldn’t have been found across the harsh land bridge connecting Africa and Asia – only death. 
      Hegra would have been a prime destination, the capital of the pagan tribe Thamud, who would later build structures like the ones below.

I do believe the Israelites travelled to Egypt, but not until much later on. This is where the ideas of Kabbalah really began to pick up steam. The idea of a Tree of Life dates back to Mesopotamia, but the Egyptians were incredibly gifted in math, science and religious studies. The Hebrew diaspora has never been shy about intermingling with the local population, a trait that is quite filial to Sumerian attitudes. The Sumerians themselves were extremely sophisticated, civilized and curious about other civilizations. They often married into the Assyrian and Akkadian Semitic tribes, which is why the Hebrew people today are referred to as “Semitic” as once they arrived in historical (now modern-day) Israel, they continued to marry converted locals, Phoenicians, Moabites, possibly even Hittites and of course, Arabians. When the diaspora fled the Islamic genocide and travelled to Europe, they continued to spread their culture and art and adopt new ways of doing things and continued adding to their diverse (strong) gene pool, and they became curious and invested in the Western ideas of the Enlightenment which spoke to the heart of Sumerian thought as well – science, literature, art and other scholarly cultured activities. When they came to America they did the exact same thing – married local women and continued to adapt to the best parts of the culture. This is why Israel today is a bastion of Western thought: Israelites, and particularly the most prolific tribe, Judah, or Jews, are extremely progressive. 
       For my part, I consider Judaism just what it is called: the religious traditions of the Tribe of Judah. There’s eleven other tribes, which are no longer lost thanks to genetic research into the matter. The Northern tribes called Jeroboam were so scattered by the wars and the disagreements with the ruler of the Southern states, Judah. The Southern state was called Rehoboam and the North basically seceded over taxation and conscription policy. Then the wars with Assyria scattered them. Conscription is the one anti-Western, anti-individual thing Israel as a state continues to perpetuate to this day. It’s worse than the draft and it is one of the worst things that a government can do to its people. That being said, Assyria is and always has been one of the scariest people to face. They are hard, warlike and aggressive people who were notorious in the time of Sumer. The Sumerians managed to win them over within a few short centuries by being very civilized: they invented writing, for starters. They married each other as stated before and exchanged goods in relative peace and harmony. 
       The Sumerians died out for other reasons than war, they were far too clever for that, and it was not yet the time of Empires. Even though they are considered extinct today, from the tale of Abraham we can see that many of them went on to seek greener pastures and at least managed to pass on their influence on the world. Like the Australian Aborigines whom they share genetic markers with, the Sumerians did not have a very dominant genetic makeup, and would therefore have absorbed the genetics of any other people they married. Does that sound like our clever little snake who is rumored to be a geneticist, and who carries the double helix as his symbol?


ETCSL translation : t.4.19.1

A balbale to Ninĝišzida (Ninĝišzida A)

Hero, lord of field and meadow, lion of the distant mountains! Ninĝišzida, who brings together giant snakes and dragons! Great wild bull who, in the murderous battle, is a flood that ……! Beloved by his mother, he to whom Ningirida gave birth from her luxurious body, who drank the good milk at her holy breast, who sucked in lion’s spittle, who grew up in the abzu! August išib priest who holds the holy ešda vessels, checker of tablets, who secures justice ……! King, wild bull with tall limbs (?), who directs speech aright, and who hates wickedness! Mighty power, whom no one dare stop when he spreads confusion! Mighty Ninĝišzida, whom no one dare stop when he spreads confusion! 

The troops are constantly at your service. Shepherd, you understand how to keep a check on the black-headed. The sheep and lambs come to seek you out, and you understand how to wield the sceptre over the goats and kids, into the distant future. Ninĝišzida, you understand how to wield the sceptre, into the distant future. 

The merciful king (i.e. Enki) entrusted you from your birth with your words of prayer. He let you have life and creation. Prince endowed with attractiveness, Ninĝišzida, when taking your seat on the throne-dais in an elevated location, lord, god, youth, right arm — clothed in your ……, with the shining sceptre grasped in your hands — then …… performs a šir-namšub song to you, addressing you intimately: ” 
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You bring calming of the heart to …… who …… lies. You fall upon the many …… and you burn them like fire.” 

The king who is the lord of broad understanding (i.e. Enki) has determined a good destiny for you on your elevated throne-dais; the god who loves justice (probably Utu) has spoken these favourable words: “Foremost one, leader of the assembly, glory of ……, king endowed with awesomeness, sun of the masses, advancing in front of them! Who can rival you in the highest heaven? What can equal you?” Hero who, after surveying the battle, goes up to the high mountains! Ninĝišzida, who, after surveying the battle, goes up to the high mountains! King, you who carry out commands in the great underworld, you who carry out the underworld’s business! Any youth who has a personal god is at your disposal, there where your commands are issued. O king, honeyed mouth of the gods! Praise be to Enki. Ninĝišzida, son of Ninazu! Praise be to Father Enki. 

A balbale of Ninĝišzida.


A balbale to Ningishzida (Ningishzida B): translation

Lord with holy dignity, imbued with great savage awesomeness! My king, lord Ninjiczida, imbued with great savage awesomeness! Hero, falcon preying on the gods, my king — dignified, with sparkling eyes, fully equipped with arrows and quiver, impetuous leopard, murderous, howling muchuc, …… (1 ms. has instead: ……), dragon snarling (?) in the lagoon, raging storm reaching (1 ms. has instead: covering) all people! Lofty-headed prince, resting in the midst of the mountains, …… smashing heads! 

Lord, your mouth is that of a pure magician (1 ms. has instead: a snake with a great tongue, a magician) (1 ms. has instead: a poisonous snake), lord Ninjiczida, ……! Ninjiczida, your mouth is that of a pure magician, lord Ninjiczida, ……! My linen-clad one, when you ……, who can find out your intentions? Ninjiczida, when you ……, who can find out your intentions? Your holy word is known to them that know it, but is unknown to them that do not know it. To them that do not know it, to them that do not know it , ……. Ninjiczida, to them that do not know it, …… When your great word comes to the earth, you are indeed a (1 ms. adds great) muchuc ……. 

You fall upon the river as a flood-wave, you rise in the fields as a devastating flood. Magilum boat, high flood of battle which cuts down (1 ms. has instead: which chops down). …… in his own heart ……, 
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…… as a dead man …… 
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Lord Ninjiczida, your praise is sweet. 

A balbale to Ninjiczida.