september apadana log

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Candyman – 09/07/2017
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Izi – 09/07/2017
Hi all, just waking up. blegh
Caffeine and video games
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Goodmorning!
Candyman – 09/07/2017
Hey Izi. Music, Work and trading for me
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
I am having a cup of coffee too.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Do you drink it black?
Oof, I gotta go re-read a big chunk of a book for the curriculum.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Yeah. I do. I like the deepness of the flavor.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Hm. Well I’ll be back later, have to go finish this section and write a comment.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
kk have fun
Izi – 09/07/2017
It was that part in Crowley’ work where he describes marriage as a mutated farce and the sex life of the bourgeois as disgusting, the idol of the corpse of love.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Oh cool.
your speakin to the choir on that part
Izi – 09/07/2017
He’s really pretty funny throughout the whole rant.
Although I feel wary when he starts sounding like he’s about to advocate for pederasty or something. He never goes that far.
But when he forbids the seduction of “infants” I have to wonder why he used “infants” instead of the word “children”
Oh well, I’m probably being paranoid.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
haha
Im making a skull shaped homebase right now
its turning out ok
Izi – 09/07/2017
lol
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
ill post a pic later
Izi – 09/07/2017
:smiley:
Right now…with that article in mind you mentioned, En, the one about Yin and Yang sexuality…I’m trying to figure out what a “soul” is composed of.
I’m not even sure that I like or will stick with the word “soul”
There are some more precise terms used in India to describe it, and the Egyptians had a pretty rigorous glossary of terms regarding the parts of the soul…
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
goes to look at the chat
sorry which one?
Izi – 09/07/2017
Nuit informs us in no uncertain terms for those of us paying attention that she has no way of ‘speaking’ by herself…she needs an intermediary…like Aiwass or Rose, for example, to “speak” and this is because I think she is the personification of Yin itself. Yin being a passive principle needs to be read by an active principle or an intermediary principle like Jen.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Nevermind that, this is an important discussion, you’ll like it, but I don’t know if you can help.
Just put that on the agenda for this month, we’re going to be dissecting the idea of souls.
I have to finish this entry.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Oh :open_mouth:
Oh I see the one by Crowley. Thought you meant like way before.
about*
Izi – 09/07/2017
Yes, way before, you were interested in my assertion that I was a true Yin
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Yes I remember that.
Izi – 09/07/2017
It’s in this article that I will explain that, but it is a difficult article with a lot of unknowns
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
I see. Well it’s cool that you bounce your ideas in here.
Pretty excited to read =]
The only thing I would claim to have some understanding is the idea of the vulnerable ego being more important than it’s typically given in psychology, and that it is closer to the idea of the id than of a simple “psychological defence”
Izi – 09/07/2017
Yeah I think that too, occultists especially seem to mix up Id and Ego all the time.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
That’s typical of jungian perspectivce though, the ego isn’t just a barrier, it’s like an integration system
Behaviorism is useful… but to a certain degree the only useful tools we have now is brain scans and self introspection
Izi – 09/07/2017
I put some of my weird diary on reddit
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
You post on there alot?
Izi – 09/07/2017
Speaking of integration, I think you have to get pretty out there to properly integrate some of the magickal ideas, like Abrahadabra. That entry is an example of that.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Take risks you mean?
Izi – 09/07/2017
People are so dull on r/occult generally so I thought I’d show them what real magick looks like.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
goes to read
Izi – 09/07/2017
I don’t usually post on reddit, I always post my journal on Abrahadabra Forums, except parts I’m forbidden to share.
And then, I label it <redacted> if it’s missing.
Candyman – 09/07/2017
I read that, it was nuts. made me laugh a couple times too
Izi – 09/07/2017
It’s just that the most interesting posts on r/occult are being made by a Nazi, and that’s a problem .
Oh good. :smiley:
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
hm cant find the link
Candyman – 09/07/2017
does that Nazi guy know what he’s talking about?
i got the impression he makes a lot of stuff up.
Izi – 09/07/2017
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He is. I’ve met his “type” before, he’s got a vanity problem.
Candyman – 09/07/2017
He is making stuff up? or he knows what he’s talking about
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
is this the one from reddit?
Izi – 09/07/2017
He hasn’t been able to ignite anything as spectacular as he would like so he constantly fills in the blanks with ooey bullshit.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
im not really good at navigating reddit, truthfully havent really done so at all really lol
Izi – 09/07/2017
There’s basically two types of occultists, those who are interested in the truth and objective reality at any cost – even if it means discarding ideas they like, and occultists who feel like memes and fantasy are exactly the same thing as magick.
They just arn’t. Everything that I talk about or record really happened, and I don’t embellish anything.
I wasn’t always so rigorous, because up until Abrahadabra I hadn’t actually experienced what was possible.
I was getting some results, but people settle. They really do.
So perseverance furthers.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Thankyou for the journal
Izi – 09/07/2017
So vox triarii knows some stuff, but he mixes it up with fictional characters and little pieces of truth interspersed with outright lies. He’s intelligent enough to make it all sound plausible, and he uses a certain style of language you find in ornate fiction, Lovecraft and so on.
I know the style because I’m a bookworm and I use that style of prose to spice up my writing, but I have very firm standards on what I will espouse as truth and reality, he does not.
It’s all just a game to him, even though it isn’t. He’s going to end up either wandering around the rest of his life in a fog of his own making or he’s going to lock horns with something real that is able to shut down his little fantasy vanity game he likes to play.
Even his attraction to Nazi ideology reveals his hand – he’s so desperate for real magick that he’s gone to the extreme end of the spectrum just to “check things out” so to speak.
Candyman – 09/07/2017
It took me a little while to catch on to that. I started noticing the lies and then it all fell apart. I don’t read his posts any longer but that whole sub treats him like royalty
Izi – 09/07/2017
I almost wonder if he’s the head of the Illuminates of Thanateros, that guy was a fucking flowery moron.
Could almost see him toning it down and going that direction. He was a major Nazi as well. And had no morals regarding mixing fiction and reality.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
So the thread you two were mentioning a few mins ago, is there any particular thread? Or are you just commenting on this character and his posts in general?
Candyman – 09/07/2017
He posts in basically every thread.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Just this guy who goes by the username vox_triarii.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
I see.
Izi – 09/07/2017
Yeah that strikes me as a neurotic tick, like he’s gotta try and prove himself. Or he wants to be the King of r/occult. Boy he’s welcome to it.
He started posting a lot more after criticism started to come out,, like he was trying to bury the callouts.
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Interesting.
Reading your journal is really inspiring!
Im gonna go lurk some reddit threads :open_mouth:
Candyman – 09/07/2017
That’s how I ended up here
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
Oh I see.
Perhaps he’s also using the conflict to learn… albeit in a kind of really around the bushes kind of way.
Unless you don’t think he’s learning anything xDD
Izi – 09/07/2017
I think he’s learning that people don’t like Nazis in general…
Candyman – 09/07/2017
lol
to be fair, at least he owns it. he never denies
۞ Animal_Eyes ۞ – 09/07/2017
hahaha
Im curious about this idea of german idealism or nazi magic… just what are they doing anyways? I dont really care, I’ve thrown in my lot philosophically along time ago, but It definitely moves some people.
It must be strange to grab your attention. Or is this just like your daily sitcom? :D:D
Izi – 09/07/2017
Well…it is a religion that deifies Hitler as a god, and advocates for a caste system, to maintain the pure blood of the whites.
thingsandstuff – 09/07/2017
I heard Germans got magic powers from cave lizards
Izi – 09/07/2017
They consider him to be the ninth avatar of Vishnu.

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Succeeding m1thr0s 729 (Magister Ouroboros 729) izi is current guardian of the 418 current in this world. She upholds the young Nu Aeon tradition of Mutational Alchemy, a hybrid branch of Hermetic Alchemy developed by m1thr0s 729. Her current work to date includes the art and written analysis of The Mutational Alchemy Tarot, the development of Pentagrammaton (the 32 5-line binary structures unknown in the East) and the ongoing analysis of The Hidden Diamond Sutra.

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