I’ll introduce you to a simple guided meditation on the TwinStar anyone can do. The TwinStar “likes it fast and hot” in the course of the official TwinStar meditation, which counts from 1-10 across the Tetractys of the Decad. Normally you do this slightly complex meditation very very fast, under 5 seconds normally, and you raise a tremendous amount of energy during a 10-720 minute session.
Even though this is an alternate meditation, and it’s considered passive, it’s not one where you sit and still the mind or relax it, or try to empty it or other such nonsense. Dispensing with the shackles of mind altogether is a technique known in the Japanese martial arts community as no-mind, which is different than emptying the mind like it is some kettle of fish.
The mind can never actually be turned off, what we can do is raise our consciousness above one of the lower rungs of the Body of Light, our flesh body, into higher rungs of The Body of Light. This mental asana positions us in the above and detaches us temporarily from the flesh body’s mechanical processes, allowing us to access higher mind.
Not everyone is ready for the style of *action meditation* that is more desirable, at least, not at first. It seems difficult, overwhelming even. Doubly so if the inability to perform is accompanied by a sense of urgency. The mirrors have their ways of instigating action and you may feel extreme pressure to learn a certain technique. This can be a little overwhelming.
I’ve developed a method of learning the TwinStar which can be satisfying but doesn’t require intense focus. Be aware however, that the fast and complete meditations are something you will enjoy and benefit from eventually if you learn to stick with it. Slow, awkward steps of a toddler lead to the fast, perfect and balanced run of an adult.
Simply take any image of the TwinStar and gaze at it. The best images are under normal or tinted glass, mimicking a black mirror.
The most advanced rungs of Mutational Alchemy were only ever explained to me. That was very frustrating for both of us. He loved writing in forums but the structured task of composing chapters of his immense work bored him to tears. He never had the patience to write down much of the intricacies of practice, only the model. Yet I do understand some of the techniques cannot be easily explained in text without extensive illustrations. Even though he taught thousands of people over the course of his lifetime, indirectly, he hated teaching. “I have to teach.” he told me, once, bemoaning his fate.
The Book of the Law states in the first chapter “He must teach, but he may make severe the ordeals.” We used to have curious conversations about that, as we were compelled to structure things so that potential students had to stand on their own two feet. They were never prepared. I’m also inclined to believe that these few students only came to us out of desperation – they had tried everything else. The world isn’t ready for Mutational Alchemy.
One of the first things the P’an Ku mirror told me, when it began instructing me strangely, and I was able to understand its encrypted signals in English, was that if I could not swim I would sink – no one would be allowed to assist me in the task of self-creating my levity. m1thr0s himself was hard on me, as were all of his associates who knew little of Mutational Alchemy. These were the secret ordeals of the Book of the Law. The first task for any neophyte to learn straight away is that one must be detached from the personal peculiarities of these ordeals. They speak through people, and the turbulence is not coming from them directly. If one cannot do this, they will fail. Choronzon and the Will of Heaven penetrates through all life.
Then m1thr0s and I would stay up all night drinking coffee and I would work on the deck, while he pushed forward with a new model of Mutational Alchemy, such as the Hidden Diamond Sutra or the Temporals, which are far beyond the practices that he could present to newbies. This was by necessity alone – the contents of the reports he was receiving from various sources had to be laid out and recorded.
The article What is the TwinStar? is a fundamental explanation of Mutational Alchemy praxis, however it is too complex for many who do not wield the benefit of understanding or scrying experience. As the saying goes around here – “if you meet the mirrors halfway they’ll pickup where you are lacking” and the same is true of the simplest of gazing operations: passive scrying.
The technique could not be more easy: simply stare at the TwinStar. This is called “mirror-gazing” and while it is not endemic to Mutational Alchemy practice, it can propel one forward if they are lacking the stability and mental acuity to perform the TwinStar meditation itself.
While I had some active scrying knowledge and had memorized the order of the Sephira on the Tree of Life, much of my initial encounters with the Mutational Alchemy material took place while I was passively gazing the P’an Ku mirror, a precursor to the doctrine of the Twin Trees.
I heard it calling my name, I heard it chanting encouragement, and its indisputable insistance that I pay attention to it came through on the communication waves as a soft but persistant voice. The trees are wonderful for building a bridge to Abrahadabra. The TwinStar doctrine is much loftier than the trees. The tree is within the star, not the other way around. This was the mistake Crowley made with Abrahadabra and while I don’t imagine enough people scrutinize Crowley enough to be put off by it, the distinction is important to both assert and recognize if we are to have success.
The slow approach to the TwinStar is the approach of Water and Earth, passive gazing. My development of this methodology was encouraged both by m1thr0s’ insistance on not interfering with an individual’s unique approach to the system, respect for their wyrd and will, as well as my particular role in the alchemical operation we were undertaking together.
Our relationship was based on me fulfilling my place as the feminine elements and he as the masculine. We were both rooted in Water and Fire, but we were manifesting Air. That is the general direction the Earth and humanity had to take. m1thr0s loved to think of me as The Goddess. He was a Shakti worshipper, as all true Tantricists are. Kali was his beloved, and he knew I also worshipped her and felt a kinship with her.
He seemed shocked and surprised when I told him one day I didn’t agree with his apologetics for the I Ching. There are several passages in the I Ching which are viewed as denigrating women. One of his previous girlfriends had found them offensive. He advised me that I would have to ignore these passages. I was a bit surprised myself, although touched by his sensitivity to sexism. I told him that during my first early weeks with the I Ching by my side, after I had forged an alliance with The Abrahadabra Institute and began my initiation rites, spontaneously, that those passages constituted some of the most wonderful and intimate experiences with the I Ching. It’s just right for Yin to appreciate Yang, and vice versa, in my opinion. It took some time for him to get used to my views on these issues, but in my opinion this misunderstanding of Yin and Yang’s position leads to all of the ill-dignified Yin and yang positions out there amongst humans.
In our pathworking together we always had to make little adjustments, but the most important ones seemed to be those in which we scaled back our misguided respect for one another. For me, my place was to manifest K’un in the place of Jen. That is, I was the representation for the entirety of Yin, manifesting Yin in her most proper place, from within the body of a Man (Jen). He was to me the highest representation of Yang in this world, representing the culmination of the best of Jen. It was this formula which would create the world, after we destroyed it. This Tantric weaving is very hard to appreciate froma fundamentalist feminist perspective, just as it is difficult to achieve from a stodgy, conservative, Chinese perspective.
To me the one piece of advice that stuck out to me from all of the I Ching literature was that where it encourages Yin to follow Yang. <insert quote> I had spent a great amount of attention to this and cultivated our relationship this way, sometimes with great pains. But he was following all of the advice for Yang towards Yin. So it was that we had forged a delicate kind of dance, punctuated by turbulent and often passionate storms of Air, Mind, Jen through our astrological sun signs. He was Aquarius and I am a Gemini. Without the language of Mutational Alchemy I could never begin to describe our relationship. So I very well couldn’t to just about anyone until this book was written.
Despite my insistence on following Yin and Yang protocol, neither m1thr0s nor I discount the active force of Yin. This may seem contrary at first, given that Yin is the receptive element, yet it has been identified classically in Chinese Antiquity as a corrosive and healing element.
In the past the difficulty with presenting Mutational Alchemy to the public was that it was so radically different from all other meditations on earth. This is where its strength lies, as the Earth’s religions and meditational practices have fallen far behind the times with regard to other disciplines, such as science and politics for example, but it makes fighting against the herd mindset within the occult intolerable.
People are so insistent on their outdated modes of thinking they feel it necessary to burden others with their dogma, even in a field where dogma has generally not been well looked upon. It’s such a leap in methodology that if one does not document every little detail of their path that leads them to success or desirable result, reciting the path to neophytes becomes damned near impossible from memories.
There is No God but Man. Perhaps we do send echoes or instruction into the past from the future. If so, let’s start by allowing ourselves *Will*, not just love. Love by itself is nice, but it doesn’t serve to elevate us the way that *Will* can and must. Love is the Law, Love under Will.