It was April 2007 and I had just finished making out with a giant white dragon that referred to himself as Ptah. Alot of other weird things had been happening, and my pineal gland had been working overtime.
My friend, a consummate occultist – let’s call him “Dave” – had just called me at my house in Memphis, Tennessee concerned about my spiritual and physical welfare because I had been acting…weird. “The Crowned and Conquering Child” Ra Hoor Khut had shouted his epithet at me in order to get my attention just a day before. I didn’t know who or what that was, and then there was Ningishzidda, a serpent with an intense interest in introducing me to The Book of the Law and training me in the art of classical Greek priestesshood.
He admitted to me that he was a follower of Jesus but didn’t tell very many because they wouldn’t understand. He thought Jesus was a god of war. I thought, and still think that he was mistaking Jesus for Zeus or some other war sky god, but I didn’t say so.
“You need to listen to him, he’s your god. Do what he tells you to.” he said, referring to Ningishzidda.
Dave never took anything too seriously but he was one of the best chaotes around and enjoyed the sinister side of magick. He epitomized the trickster spirit. So his revelation that Jesus was his ishta dev (chosen face of godhead) was a bit of a shock.
A polytheistic Christian telling me to obey the voices of the sparkling green and gold snakes and dragons invading my house.
The call was completely random, it was the second or third time we had spoken on the phone. I had listened to his account of his wife, soaking the King James bible in urine so the thing about being one of “them” didn’t really register the last time we had spoken.
“So…wait a minute. Last time I spoke to you, I heard about your wife peeing on a bible.”
“Yeah…she did…what you think I would marry some rube? She’s a witch.”
Apparently she didn’t like the rewrite anymore than Jews and Christian critics do.
“I don’t get why you’re into Jesus I mean most Christians I know are totally retarded.”
“Oh the bible thumpers and Jesus loves everyone types? Yeah I fucking can’t stand them either. They’re a bunch of zombies.”
I told him everything that had been happening, the encounters with strange cthonic deities and acid-tripesque experiences.
“He’s trying to talk through me. I don’t know if I should”.
“Let him talk. You need to obey him.”
My voice changed and deepened as I felt the serpent in my head take over my speech centers. I carefully controlled my mind so as to not interrupt the lightly pressing channel.
“You need to stop doing that shit”
“Don’t play dumb with me”
“Oh…yeah….I think…I think I know what you’re talking about. I’ll try to stop.”
A few weeks later I learned Dave had been doing cocaine and admitted he needed help. I didn’t even know he was addicted to cocaine or what the message was about. I used to feel uncomfortable with the channeling process like this but I’ve grown comfortable with it, since it’s also saved my ass more than once.
They say initiation is dangerous and can drive a person insane. No one ever seems to explain why in great detail, nor do the dire warnings ever come attached to a person who will tell a personal tale of why.
The whole system of magickal orders and secret societies was born on the tide of the great mystery schools of the Greece and Italy, who in turn took a page from the cults of Mesopotamia: Sumer, Akkad, Assyria and Babalon as well as Egypt. Mithraism, the great religion of the Roman Empire nearly overtook Christianity in the race to become the world’s most popular religion. Masculine in nature, it shared an alliance with the cult of Cybele, “Magna Mater” the great mother, another powerful faction in the ancient world. These societies were undoubtedly collaborators in the greatest entheogenic party ever held – The Rites of Eleusis. The structure and initiation grades in these religions were designed to minimize risk of death, insanity and mistakes in one’s spiritual path. They were very important: senators and philosophers partook in the mysteries, but so did housewives and slaves, and there were no anti-drug laws.
At the time I went through this spiritual awakening, I was a student, trying to make sense of it all, in a very unhappy marriage and at the same time had always been a serious student of the occult. I had just finished two years at an Art Renewal Center approved atelier, and was starting in on my first year in college.
More importantly I had just begun examining m1thr0s’s work more closely about 6 months earlier in December, and with the unveiling of his latest work in April of 2007, the prototype to the Twin Trees, titled “The P’an Ku Arrangement” my mind was completely blown.
Reflecting back now I wonder if Dave realized that the profile of his god more closely matched Mithras than Yeheshuah, or Jesus for those vulgar enough to mix the Jewish heretic up with the Roman salute to the sky god, Zeus. (The Latin pronunciation for Jesus literally means “Hail Zeus”) I don’t know that Dave was a closet Mithraist or even mistaking Mithras for Jesus, and I don’t talk to him anymore so I can’t ask him.
The celebration for Mithras in the Roman Empire took place at Winter Solstice, and the parallels between the invented religion of Christianity and Mithraism are blatant. Mithras was in fact a redeemer and born of the virgin goddess Anahita, a war goddess. Both consort and mother to Mithras, just like in the Christian mythology – Mary (may she be torn on the wheel) doesn’t do it by herself. The Christian god has sex with Mary to become human, that’s the reason why Catholic Christians think the trinity is still monotheism. God the Father is God the Son. Nothing like a little paganistic incest lore to spice up religion. Unfortunately the intention was never about fun, it was about control, and so while the divine can be incredibly sexy, the whole point of the Catholic Church and almost all subsequent Christian movements was to uphold the Word of Restriction. (See the Book of the Law for more on that)
So it’s all garbage essentially, which is why I practically gag when I hear people espousing the belief that they are “Christian Occultists”, or “Christian Mages”. To me it’s an oxymoron, and belies deeply embedded ignorance. Ra Hoor Khut is clear that it’s imperative that all of the old aeon religions be discarded, Christianity and Islam are his main targets, blind slave religions founded in the most recent Aeon, while he attacks secondarily the creeds of Hinduism, Buddhism, Shamanism and Judaism – religions founded not in the Age of the Father, but in the Age of the Mother before that. Tearing out the flesh of these bodies of religion and absorbing the edible nutrients, he encourages us to take what we need from these dying cults and use them as our food during his reign.
This is why both m1thr0s and I continue to incorporate the best parts of Sanatana Dharma, (and most especially its left hand path jewel, Tantra) as well as elements of Tibetan Buddhism, Shamanism and Kabbalah.
In the Book of the Law several clues are left to us admist the tomfoolery of Aleister Crowley’s conflicted mind. (Yes, I believe he was FORCED to write and keep this book through the machinations of karmic laws he had triggered. His actions are very clear – first the book sat in a rubbish pile for years. Crowley was extremely uncomfortable with it. He was specifically told not to change a single letter, and to publish it quickly. He disobeyed both commands, letting it collect dust and then adding that nauseating poem, while adjusting spelling and grammar from the original script. Then he washed his hands of it by saying he didn’t have anything to do with writing it.
Nuit explains to us that the word of Sin is Restriction. Sin is a proper noun, and there is only one Sin in the occult record, that is the Moon God of Ur, the historical birthplace of Abraham. Immediately prior she makes what I believe is an insight into the nature of Had and Hadit as a Transtigridian Snake God (See my article on Ningishzidda, about midway through, for more information on this).
Ra Hoor Khut explains himself as a God of War and Vengeance, but vengeance for what? If Sin, the Moon God of Ur is the Restriction we’ve been fighting all along, then what was the so-called “Original Sin” he committed that Ra Hoor Khut wishes to avenge? Does it have anything to do with mankind? I think that it does, and so do several other deities I’ve contacted.
Mithras, for one, appeared to me within a few months of my initiation, as a sort of spooky and cat-like sorcerous Lord of Time and Space, a friend of Ningishzidda and an officiator of the most important contract I was to make in my entire life, my dedication to Ningishzidda. I did not know at the time that the Mithra known to ancient Persia was the god of contracts, so it was a highly auspicious omen later when I found out and my occult practices were confirmed. (this will happen many times over the course of a successful pathworking, but it was one of my more significant eye openers)
I think that the deep conflict in the Middle East and the epic sexual revolution ignited in The United States of America is nearly at the heart of the Aeonic movement, and that Ra Hoor Khut’s reign shall be made on what transpires here and there within the next fifteen years. I believe this is why the United States population is so fixated on Israel and so-called Palestine. I am not one to make predictions or prophecies, this is one educated guess. I will explain my reasons later, I promise.